Women And How They See Themselves
Watching what I eat, no soft drinks, rarely ever eating in a restaurant because of large portions served, oatmeal every morning instead of the fat filled breakfast I’d love to have. I go to the gym and bust my ass on every horrible piece of equipment they have. I have even started running. I am the ideal weight for my height, according to the Doctor.
So Why the hell am I so critical of my body? Actually I can tell you why. It’s because I’m a typical female. Men have it very easy in this department, they can be 400 pounds, hairy, smelly,bald and ugly – but when they look in the mirror they see one hot looking stud. DAMN IT! I don’t shy away from being naked in front of my husband, but I still am very critical of myself. I have a sister in law that is my height and weight. I think she looks great. I guess women are just wired that way. It’s very rare to find a woman that is happy with her body. We usually just call those women vain… instead of wishing we had the strength to think that way too.
I think the upcoming trip and being around others while naked will help me. A wide variety of people will be there, from the fit and trim to the out of shape. Seeing that everyone else has body flaws will give me some perspective. It’s a weird thing to explain. I’m not afraid of being nude, I’m just not happy with certain parts of my body. Not to unhappy to stay home…… I love that I have long legs, I get much attention from them. But I also have thick thighs from being active for a good portion of my life. I’m not the model thin girl that many tall girls are. I guess thicker more muscle toned thighs are better than thin and not toned. Once I get over that, we will move on to the whole “barefoot phobia” I have….
I HATE TO BE BAREFOOT… Not just a little dislike, it freaks me out. I never wear flat shoes, so I will be the tall girl in heels by the nude pool. Nothing like meeting new people when most will be nipple level to me….or lower…..
How do you keep from staring? I think in general I will be fine with the not staring thing. What if a guy is talking to me that has a giant dick??? I’m absolutely sure I will have to admire…..or stare….whatever you want to call it 
I’m not even close to quiet when I drink, so I’m going to have to remind myself not to make loud announcements that there is a massive cock providing shade for us. I keep picturing myself yelling something like “Holy Shit! The Human Tripod is here!” And as a typical male, all men within ear shot will think I’m talking about them. And why? Because men can get naked and be totally at ease and proud of who they are. My goal is to have that kind of bravery by hour #2 by the pool.
